7th January 2010.

Today school kinda FUN. Having FUN with my friends,talking jokes. In the time school start I have to make some decision. That is about relationship. My relationship with my boyfriend. Yesterday he asked me to answer him that do I still love him. I can't answer him. First, I can't lie to him and also I don't wanna hurt him cause he's really good to me. Care for me. But I'm sucks. I don't even care for him. This days I'm really busy with my school works and I had no time to message him. I keep thinking and asking myself"Should I continue with him or should I just let go?" At last my decision came out of my mind. The answer is Let go. I have to end this relationship and Try not to have another relationship . The reason of my decision is Fair for each other. I don't wanna waste his time. I also don't wanna feel sad when I think of him. I just keep don't care bout him. This really make me feel suffer. I want him to concentrate in his study and also I want to concentrate on my study. So I decided to break with him. I know I promise to him before that I won't let go. I'm sorry. Now i had no choice. Hope we are still friends. He requested to be my god brother. And I did agree. I promise to him I will always keep in touch with him and That promise I will keep. I will message him everyday. I'm not the kind of person that don't keep in touch with ex after breaking up. We are still friends and of course we still can go for movies and hang out. I hope he will feel better after a few days or maybe weeks. As long as he's happy I will also be happy. Wish you ALL the BEST here. STUDY hard ! =) and I'm sorry for everything bad that I done to you.