My love one. <3

This guy had broke my heart a month ago before his spm exam. I always think that izit fate make us be together or what? I always wish that it was Fate. I met him many times before but why can't I know that he will be someone special one day? When the time he propose to me I was really Stunned. I ask myself, Why would he chosen me as his special one? Why not other girls? I had never think bout him as my special one. I dont even want him at first. BUT in only one word he make me accepted him. That is " I had never feel for this for so long after my ex and now i fall for you". I feel like giving him a chance even though I dont like him that much that time. He told me he will be going to overseas next year and I think this love wont last long. I can't believe after our first date, I fall for him deeper and deeper. There's no guys win my love and attention before. He's the first one and he's the only one. Even he's not that good looking person I can't believe I like him so much after our few dates. One of the reason I like him so much is because he never lie to ME. He's toooo honest to me. I had never met a guy like this before. Most of the guy will just tell lies cause they dont wanna hurt their girlfriend. Although he hurt me that much when he's with me . I don't feel angry bout him cause he honest to me. I can just stand it when he hurt me but after the end of our relationship I feel I can't stand the Hurt anymore. That hurt im taking it alone. Is really diferent from the time we take it together. Im all alone. I miss him every minute and every seconds. Whatever I do it will remind me of HIM. The hurt is getting worst when I think of it. My tears will flow through my cheek everytime i think of those memory we had. The memories bout me and him is tooo much ! I can't just forget in one second,one day nor one month. It takes time and the time must be very very long. Everyday im telling myself to be tough but I can't do it. I can only show to people that im happy. Actually the truth is Im NOT happy at all ! In my heart there's a BIG hole and it keep bleeding non stop. Every moment I see him I know I can look at him too long cause the hole of my heart will be more worst. I feel like meeting him but im also scared meeting him. He's just still in my heart. The worst thing I need to face in MY life. <3